Day 7: Boyfriends

The best teachers. My greatest gurus. My best mirrors. I started relationships after my 20ties- already in my young adult life. Initially because it felt like I have to- for society, because everyone does so. However after starting more mindful journey in my life, all boyfriends and connected stories have been great guides in my own darkness and light. Great study on how I become attached and clingy, how I withdraw and avoid conflicts. And looking back, they have each been special for certain period in my life. Would not I have such difficult break up and departure with one of my boyfriends, I might not have been ready for next phase in my life which was extremely full with difficult people and situations. Would not I have another deceiving experience, I would not have learnt such compassion towards myself in times of difficulty. I also have learnt to surrender, to be deeply held, to be challenged till my core and enjoy observing my defensiveness, to be celebrated, to be surprised etc. I am learning to give space for conflicts and withdrawal and anger and see the absolute beauty of it. Because relationships, relating, being related is something that touches the core of our being like nothing else. That is where our deep work lies and this is where the answers might come and be practiced. Practiced with your partner, right here, right now.